Being a senior in college is one of the scariest positions
to be in. Do you know why? Because (for most people) it's the first real time in your life you
don’t know what you’ll be doing after you graduate. You don’t know what city
you’ll be in, where you’ll be working or if you'll even have a job by the
time May rolls around. It is a hard position to be in because you’re in a
balancing act between trying to live up the last 80 days of college, spending
quality time with your closest friends, trying to figure out how to save money,
find a job, get your resume together and still focus on the classes you're in
(and actually caring about them). Maybe that’s just me, but these past few
weeks I catch myself in a bind of anxiety and nostalgia. One side of me wants
to go running back to my first semester in college and do all those things you
regret not doing. The other side of me is so anxious, nervous and excited to
finally be starting in the real world to see if you can handle it. I keep going
back to the verse Philippians 4:6- “Do
not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition,
with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.”
I’ve had a
tendency to become in denial and I’m not even exactly sure what about. It might
be because I’m terribly upset and petrified to not be in the best semester of college and not living
with my roommates anymore, or if I’m scared of what’s to come, or I’m scared
that me and my boyfriend will have to manage a long-distance relationship for
the first time. I've never experienced so many different emotions that are
both good and bad. Like I said, this has been the most fun semester by far! But with all these feelings going on, sometimes it would be
easier to retreat to feeling numb so I don’t have to feel what it's like to mend
a hurting friendship or feel the anxiety of the real world. But no matter how
hard, fun, exciting and petrifying this semester is, I can always find a reason
to smile.
Yes I still have hard days and that’s okay! Life is long and
bumpy at times. But the Lord had a perfect plan for me and He continues to have
His perfect plan for me long after I’ve graduated. There’s no reason to stress
about the future. Trust is the antithesis of stress. You can’t have both. If I
believe, then I must let go and trust. Belief is more than a mental assent,
it’s a verb, its something that you do.
So I want to genuinely enjoy this last semester of college
because JOY is worth the effort of TRUST.
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